My life is so lonely. looking for a life changing, motivational book?

My life is so lonely. Looking for a life changing, motivational book? Its been a little bit of a crazy year for me this year.. ive begun my first year in college for one, away from a family which I never really have been able to fit into in the first place.

I don't really have any relatives, its just me, my 2 siblings, and my mom, and quite frankly, they are all alike and I totally don't click with them, so leaving college was hard, but not really that bad for someone who never really had anyone to lean on in the first place. I also for the first time actually started to make friends for the first time this year. Back at school, I have always been a bit too mature for my own age, so throughout high school, it was like I was quiet and very restrained, and no one really wanted to be my friend or let me into their lives because I was new and all cliques had been formed by high school years.

It was like, the teachers understood me more than the other students, and I always found myself growing to really get to know and respect my teachers because I could talk to them and they would get me. So I kind of went through high school as a loner, but never really had much of a problem with it. I enjoyed just being me and for some reason never had a problem being just independent and left alone.

But a major 360 this year, where I really started to make a group of friends, which actually strangely happened to be all guys, but still, I found that they are not always the genuine friends that care so much and would do anything in the world for me. So as far as my life has gone, I have yet to really understand friendship, because I would do anything for a friend, and a great listener and an amazing shoulder to be there for someone, yet no one has ever really been there for me. And my love life, which has been the absolute death of me.

Without being cocky, I am an extremely beautiful girl, breathtaking, but not the hott, sexy girl that the college guys are looking for a random hookup with. I am totally the relationship type of girl, and I get the attention, but not the right kind. And the guy I completely fell in love with, my good friend, used me to hook up with me, and then told me he cant do this, it would never work out, cause theres this girl at home he likes.

So in other words, I feel like my whole life people have always screwed me over. I never have had anyone to rely on, and as far as I have seen, many good deeds do go unnoticed, true love does not exist, and not everyone does discover real friendship. I am looking for a book that will help me gain some strength in my life and help me discover true happiness.

I don't have too much time to read, so I really want to make sue that this is a good one. I need something that will change my life, ya know? Could anyone help me out here?