Why do I feel like spirits are watching me?

Sounds like she loves your pain. Calm down and allow her to listen to you . Expressing it to some one the fears and phobias will greatly help you.It sounds like she is open hearted and not going to judge you.

This is a chance to grow. Treat her with kindness back , a small gift show her you appreciate her efforts.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.