First of all I wanted to say I am so sorry for what you are going through.. You have two children.. You can't continue to go through this.. You are going to have to be strong and do what you have to do starting with getting a job so you can learn to depend on YOURSELF. He knows he has you by the balls right now cause you don;t work so you will take what he dishes out.. I use to have that same mentality where I thought I had no where to go and what was I going to do all this and make excuses for him so on and so forth till one day I realized.. . You can't continue to treat me like crap and expect me to take it.. YOU ALSO have to realize honey you have children.. what will they think when they see or here daddy turning to other women or calling their mom names.
If you don't do it for yourself do it for your children.. it is your job to protect them and teach them right from wrong instead of leaving them in that enviornment to continue the cycle once they are adults.
Well not cheating was a good choice, that would only hurt your kids and make things worse. Sounds like he's scared and trying to escape real life by talking to those sluts he used to see. If you do want to hurt him I suggest you hook up with a couple of black bucks and let them ride you hard.
You'll love it and telling him what you did will feel good too. I'd take you from him too and treat you right.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.