Possibly with relief as you found someone you can believe in. You have had your share of horrible guys, so this one is something special, someone who treats you with respect, and is worth keeping.
Because you also say "I'm a very emotional person.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.