For baby shower prizes I would like to give prizes that go w/a phrase like"4m my shower 2 urs"& give shower items.do you have any other ideas?

Its very normal to feel how your feeling ... I don't think youll ever be comfortable around colored people again but you can try some counciling to help you . Maybe it will help you feel safer . But when a child goes through tragic things like that its very hard to overcome .

I was molested when I was 12 years old by my aunts new husband at the time and to this day I still cant even hug my dad without feeling uncomfortable.

Well first stop calling them colored people. That's a term from the 50's. Second, think about this: if those two guys were white would you be feeling the same way about white guys?

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.