How do I stop being so jealous and insecure if I feel I have no control over it?

Congratulations...you are a relatively normal 21yo female. Worst case scenario is that he'll feel like he isn't trusted and reject you for that. Try sitting down and talking to him about how you feel...it's amazing what can be sorted out with a few words!

The depression/anxiety issues probably don't help...it sounds like you are have low self-esteem at the moment...which would make you start thinking that you aren't good enough for him and automatically see him as looking at other women. It could also be that you feel the need to be around him constantly because he makes you happy...and for you that seems to be the obvious answer to your depression issues. When I was on prozac I found that certain people made me feel better about myself...and consequently I tried to be around them more often.

Then when I couldn't be around them for whatever reason I felt like crap....which was my own damn fault for being too damn dependant on them. Try to find activities and hobbies that you enjoy as ... more.

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