My lack of confidence/ low self esteem is ruining my relationship.?

If you genuinely cannot distinguish between someone being happy and justifiably proud of their accomplishments, and someone who's bragging, then you need therapy. Same if you think your threshold for self-satisfaction is where everyone should be, when you know it's lower than it should be. And if you are seeing a therapist, then talk this out with them.

I'm not saying this to be snarky or to put you down; I'm saying it because needing other people to be miserable or you can't feel comfortable around them is no way to go through life.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.