You are luckier than you realise, having someone to whom you could commit wholeheartedly in a public ceremony. People like me will never find 'that person', and never have the commitment you so readily throw away. Count yourself lucky; and don't throw away what you already have.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.