Oh my dear...bless your broken heart. Sure, god understands your pain and He frels it with you. I am a born again Cristian and I know I was meant to find you here, as I'm usually not even on the computer this late.
I recently lost my mother and I'm still suffering from the loss. , as she was my very best friend who I spoke to at least twice a day. I suffered from an anxiety disorder and throughout my life when no one understood or had the patience, Momma did.
It's like I can't believe I have to live without her! There have been times where I felt as low as you and just wanted to die to see her again. Taking your own life is wrong and you will be inflicting the pain you're feeling now onto someone who cares for you.
And your husband? He would tell you? I don't for a minute believe he would want you to do that!
You see, he's in Heaven with the lord and he is helping to prepare a place for you when it's Your time..... And that is not now! Don't take a chance that you won't see your husband again and take yourself out. You want to kill the pain not yourself!
You need someone right now to be with you. If you'd like to email me and give me a number to call a loved one for you, I will. Or at least call the suicide crisis line!
There are people there to talk and listen and help you through this. You don't have to do this alone, dear. I'm a mother and a grandmother and very kind if you need to talk.
Please respond on here if you would like my info sndvibeill get it gnto you. I'm staying up and watching your post and praying. Father- please help your daughter in her time if need .
She needs you, lord. Give her that peace that passes all understanding...... God bless and hang in there, please?
Life is always like that. God knows the plans. He will love you and be kind.
Some times life look so tragic....God only knows he has chosen some thing better from 2 terrible options... May be the options wud be like... 1)Hus dies 2) Hus and kids die.... Feel better becos if you had a kid and lost him with your hus... its double pain Our lives r all pre planned but god wants to see...how the children trusts and hold on to him to face the realities of life... Souls never die...dear. Ur hus is now with out body But he is existing like an energy... He might be wishing you to never give up in life and live the life fully....ensuring god that you still trusts him Don't worry Life is like this Being + and bold is the signs of god's children.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.