Silly! Would God make anything ugly? No!
You are beautiful simply because you are God's! I know what you feel though. I've been seen as "ugly" since 3rd grade.
Here's a tip. Desire what God wants. Lord knows, it's hard.
But if you truly desire what He wants for you, He will make you happy. And if you are happy, why would you care what you looked like? But, you said something that is really disturbing.
You would rather die than be ugly. That means you would rather throw away God's ultimate gift of life than suffer for some short lived fad. What is ugly or not is determined by a society.
The value of life is determined by God. Honestly, you need a confidence booster. So here's a couple of tips: 1) Pray more.
Ask God to give you healthy self-love. You need it to love others and Him. 2) You want to do cheerleading.
Do dance lessons or something similar to it. Do it because you enjoy doing it! Hobbies are fun, and you can make awesome friends there!
3) Don't follow stereotypes. I'm a junior, and I don't have a bf. I'm not a cheerleader.
Highschool is unique experience for everyone. Think positively. Stop looking at your feet, and look up to your friends and your experiences.
Happiness is everywhere! Get involved! Talk with people.
They'll help you improve your social skills. By the way, you don't want to be regular. To be regular means that you are a slave to society, which you AREN'T.
4) Confidence tip: When no one is around, just chill naked. Not for too long now, but I mean, just look at what you are under those clothes. Look at what you like about your body.
5) Getting friends: Talk to genuine people. The reason why you aren't talking to people is because you are 1) self conscious 2) feel tension between you and other people. So, go up to people you've talked to before and strike up a conversation or merely a few words!
"Your hair looks SOOO nice today! What shampoo do you use?" Ask them about school.
Teens talk about school a LOT. 6) One last thing. I want you to go up to a mirror and stare at yourself saying "I am beautiful."
Do this over and over until you finally believe it. Because you are, and you will have to realize that to be happy.
You are beautiful in the eyes of God. Why would he change what he already knows that is beautiful? What you need is some self esteem and some convenience.
Love yourself first, than others will see the beauty you have. Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. Once you start to believe in yourself, you also will see your beauty.
Change your hair style, make up and your clothes. Pick out things that make you feel good and walk with your head held high.. and SMILE. Others will see this positive energy and want to talk to you and be your friend.
What they see now is negative ENERGY and its keeping them away. You can do it! Believe :) and you will see.... when you least expect it, you will see!
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