Feeling bad about getting new cat after recent death of previous cat?

You sound terribly, painfully alone. That's a symptom of depression and in your case, I gather it's pretty severe. Perhaps your plight is more serious than you can handle but your life is no worse than that of many others.

You simply aren't aware of it, possibly because of self concern. If you're not seeing a psychologist or psychiatrist, you're making a huge mistake. People can take just so much unhappiness before exploding.

You're on the verge of doing just that and it's time to call for help. You won't resolve deep-seated conflicts on a message board but I'm hoping you'll gain some much needed support and empathy. You've gotten my attention.

Len.

I know how you feel, my life kinda seems the same to me. I cant get nothing right, i'm anxious all the time and cant even get myself together to find a job or go to school or anything, i'm just totally unmotivated and feel so helpless, I think about life and death all the time, and how some people just get everything right and succeed at everything they do. And how most of them are really shitty people.

But I have this feeling like i'm different than everyone else, I can't really put my finger on it but it's like I was chosen to suffer so that I can be saved or something like that. Anyways I hope your life changes for the best and if not I guess i'll see you on the other side soon.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.