How can I stop myself from wanting to actually kill myself just because I'm ugly?

Keely, we can all take the perfect example of a life and fail in some way of comparison. Ideally we learn very important things as teens that carry us to success as we go on into adulthood. Many get side tracked by dysfunctional behaviors, not learning how to deal with feelings/others/socialize, build confidence, ordeal with old emotional pain.

There are answers and solutions to all that ,even if one does not learn them until they are much much older, they can stil be learned. For instance , you already have learned that you can feel this badly and that it passes and things can and do get better, even if you have not figured out how to keep them better. Life does get better, because we learn how to deal better with what comes up, and we build on our successes.

If you need some assistance with all that, and getting back on track, you are not the first and you are one of the smart people who recognize it and now wnat to know what you can do. I think the answers are a lot easier than just years and years of therapy that does littel to nothing, and is costly. There are forms of therapy that work much quicker, like eftmasters.com, and some people even heal themselves with the free selfhelp version, eftuniverse.com click on 'get startedf ree' YOu may also like these, a free healing list and montly healing session, at jodunning.com, some free replays and registration at healingwiththemasters.com, mywellnessrevolution.com One thing important is to get back or get in touch with your own self, and one way to do that is to focus on the heart area while you sit comfortably and quietly and feel love in that area.

If you then practice staying in that feeling and rhythm longer and longer you will stay in touch with your true self and things you want and need will come to you easier. Sometimes when we have troubles, it means we are not intouch with what we are suppose to be doing in life, we have lost touch with our selves. When you reconnect consciously with your self and the feeling of that, things will start to flow again.

An excellent online resource to "chat" real time with peers who may be experiencing the same feelings or issues as you are is http://www.ChatSuicide.org. ChatSuicide.org is an anonymous text-based chat that you can access from your phone or computer. Peer support is often recognized as more effective than some of the other support options, but should not in itself replace other forms of help either.

Give it a try, it's anonymous - http://www.ChatSuicide.org Online chat and phone text is going to replace traditional telephone voice, as is the trend we see going forward, right?

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.