I would classify you as being a Religio-Spiritual Synthesist. You're a Sincere Seeker. This is *good*!
You're thinking for yourself... you're not of the sheeple. Most 15 year olds i've been aware of don't *begin* to have a passionate search for the Larger Truths, the Divine Reality, as you appear to have had since the age of 12. At age 15 I wasn't *beginning* to question Christianity, yet, & I sure wasn't passionately investigating any of the alternatives!
(i was a very sincere... guilt-ridden... believer at that point.) In college I was still Christian... & was mainly inspired by Transcendentalists like Ralph Waldo Emerson & Henry David Thoreau. It was probably *after* college -- around age 22 -- that I began reading texts like the *Tao Te Ching* (which I Most Highly recommend to you -- when you're ready for it -- as probably the most *flawless* spiritual text in existence)... the *Upanishads* (which I also very highly recommend)... the *Bhagavad Gita* (wasn't that impressed by that one) & "The Dhammapada" (Buddha's Teachings) which I thought was one of the wisest works i'd ever read at *that* point in my life. I also remember thinking very highly of "Ecclesiastes" in the Bible, in my early 20s, but by the age of 50 it did not seem *nearly* so wise as it had seemed in my 20s... Many statements in it *now* I would dispute their truth.
I *loved* the books of Alan Watts... spent a number of years bewildered but enchanted by Zen Buddhism (R. G. Blythe, Volume 5 of his Zen Classics is especially fine), *really* appreciated the Commentaries on Living Volumes 2 & 3 by J.
Krishnamurti (who I consider to have been Buddha, reincarnated). Thoroughly enjoyed dozens of volumes of Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh's talks (you can put all these names into a search engine & see what volumes are available that might look appealing to you). I'm sure Rajneesh's people have a website up, devoted to him... & lots of Alan Watts's talks were up on YouTube, last I knew (which I *also* Most Highly Recommend -- one of the most *sensible* of Spiritual Teachers).
At age 20... age 30... age 50... you're pretty certain to be in totally different spaces in your Spiritual Quest than you are now... I define myself as being a Goddess-loving Taoist Panentheist with Gnostic leanings & a deep respect for Sri Aurobindo & the Mother (who had their ashram in Pondicherry, India). I highly recommend The Mother's Agenda -- all 13 volumes of it (the first volume is more minor, because SatPrem wasn't *recording* his dialogs with this very wise & enlightened woman, yet -- only summarizing their talks afterwards. Aurobindo... well, I think SAVITRI is his supreme work but maybe "The Synthesis of Yoga" would be a good place to start (*if* & when you're ready!).
I also really *do* communicate with Yeshua, Goddess Sophia-Isis and with Mary Magdalene... & *do* receive *responses* from them (albeit quite fragmentary & often enigmatic in their fragmentary incompleteness). Direct Communion with *these* is what is Most Relevant, input-wise, in *my* life, at this point. If you don't *believe* in Goddess, you've closed to door (& closed your mind) to *contact* with Her, of course.
I'm a synthesist *too* -- & there *is* no label that adequately describes *any* of us.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.