You sound like another screwed up kid that may figure some answers out by the time your are 60 if you make it around here that long. Stop fighting and hating everything so much, just surrender to the insanity around you and learn to love things, people and yourself.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.