Christian or Godly advice, I have been dealing with this feeling?

I am so sorry. I have been in your shoes. Although, I knew my baby was sick and knew our time was limited so our early goodbye was expected.

How do you deal with this? Everyone is different. How I dealt with it was finding an online support group that I was anonymous to.

It was other mom's who had babies that were sick like mine and they knew what to say to give me comfort. Some days I comforted them also. I also told the people in my life that I am grieving and please don't take things personal if I am not talkative or calling them back or on facebook, etc. They gave me my space and I really tried to be involved with them when I felt like it.

Take things one minute, one hour, one day at a time. At my worst, I thought I would never ever get to feel normal again. Mine was a year ago and as I write this, I cannot believe I am able to get through writing this to you without bawling my eyes out.

You will feel normal, but it will be a different normal. I feel like a mirror that was broken and glued back together, I am the same but not. Don't worry that you are constantly crying.

You are grieving and that is ok. Grief is hard work and you cannot get around it. It has to be done.

I am not an 18 year old so, I don't know how you go about becoming a normal teenager again. But, don't worry about that right now. Just take care of yourself and take it day by day.

You will know when you want to be a "normal" teenager again. I will tell you that this past summer, one day, I was just struck that I was actually happy that day. I was more happy than sad that day and that was about 8 months after.

I am sorry, I will say a prayer for you tonight. You are not alone. There are a lot of us mommy's with little ones in heaven.

I know just how you feel. I had a stillborn baby girl at 21 weeks when I was 17. It didn't hit me until I was on my way home that I was leaving empty handed.

I got to hold her for 7 hrs n take pictures. Got footprints and a blanket. Her 6th birthday just passed and I now have a almost 5 yr old lil girl a 3 yr old lil boy n im 4 months pregnant.

But I still think about how my life would be if she was here. Her dads side of the family brushed it off like it was nothing n didn't even come to her funeral. The whole experience changed my life.

It definitely makes me look at life from a different view. I honestly don't think you will go back to being a normal 18 yr old. But your life will start to go back again.

Im sorry that you had to go through this.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.