Did I have a panic attack?

Therapy would be your best step, so don't put it out of your mind completely. There are a lot of good books out there about improving your self-esteem and boosting your self-confidence. Go to an online bookstore and get a few with high reader ratings.

No honey, talk to your parents. You aren't going insane.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.