Visit blackdogtribe.com for online support.. Also Ur selfesteem is very low right now. U need to find ways to improve it, look online for tips. Also try learning and doing new things; start small and this will give you a sense of achievement.
.. Visit yourlifeyourvoice.org to talk to a free online councellor.. Look up exercise and depression online it releases endorfins which improve mood and brain chemistry. And Art Therapy; channelling what your feeling into something creative helps your brain process the negativity in your head. Also find some volunteer work; helping others or nature builds selfesteem, gives life new meaning gives perspective and good karma... you don't have to believe in god but finding some spirituality can really help and good karma is a good start... basically research all you can on depression then when you find things that help come on here and share with the other deprrssed people, more good karma.
Why not join clubs groups and activities in your community where you ll meet like minded people. Or challenge urself by joining groups you wouldnt normally be interested in. Good luck and don't be afraid of going to your doctor, be totally honest and they ll understand and be able to help; medication can work wonders, like lifting a weight from your shoulders.
Sit them down, at a time when you all don't have anything else going on and just say "I have something important to tell you, I want you to listen and not yell at me. People have been bullying me and it has gotten so bad that i'm now hurting myself. I want you to understand and to help me get through this.
I don't want you to be upset at me for not telling you, because I was scared that you would be mad. I just want you to help me." After that they should be okay.
You just need to stay calm when you tell them, don't get overly emotional til you tell them everything. Good Luck :).
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.