You will never lose the urge. Reconcile yourself being a panty boy and enjoy wearing your panties; even if its only at home. You should maybe consider wearing them to bed every night with a pretty camisole top or shorty nighty.
Your collection of panties should include nylon and satin panties of pastel colors, especially pink.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.