Your outlook on life plays a great deal on how other people see you. If you feel as though you have no value, then who will value you? For example, money has value to people because it is assigned value.
Because it is assigned value, other people value it, and the cycle continues. If you assign yourself value, then other people will begin to feel that you are valuable as well. I am a stranger to you, but I value you.
I value your existence. You are on this planet for a purpose, and I sincerely hope that you allow yourself to live and achieve that purpose. I believe in you.
You cannot change the past, but you can determine how the past affects your present in order to shape your future in a positive way.
Just gonna quickly throw out that living at home at seventeen isn't a bad thing at all; that's completely normal, your sister must just be dumb and annoying. If you're not happy with your life, shut up and do something about it. Quit cutting yourself, it's not accomplishing a single thing, it's really just stupid and you won't be getting rid of those scars.
If your parents are s hit, quit depending on them. Get a job and start saving money to move out when you turn eighteen. Get out there more, just forget your shyness and speak when you want to speak.
"I should have died, I should have died, I should have died," no, knock it off, you're clearly here for a reason. If that's the sort of energy you give off, that's why people don't like you. Leave your comfort zone, look at the aspects of your life you dislike, change them.
It's that simple. You've got to be brave in order to change these things. So buck up and do it.
Good luck.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.