As you are aware ,this is a highly addictive amphetamine-perhaps a factor in your overly strenuous exercise routine. Xanax is also very addictive-in fact a person is usually addicted within eight weeks of taking it;it has many many side -effects-too many to enumerate here. You say you are a health freak!
Discuss this with your doctor -he /she knows your history. I suspect you are on xanax to counteract the stimulating effects of adderall-but xanax can also have a stimulating effect and is not ideal if there is a history of bi-polar disorder. Xanax can seriously mess up your body and mind!
You really need to talk to a doctor asap. On the face of it a more balanced approach ,I think, would be healthier-fewer drugs -less exercise. Both of these drugs require a weaning off period,which must be managed in conjunction with a health professional.
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