Should I tell my therapist i'm homicidal?

You can be sure that you are your therapists star patient. She will be abundantly aware of the dangers of 'transference' which are usually male/female and which can threaten to railroad the good effects of therapy. You are now healthy and mostly happy, and she is treating you as a recovered person, with some friendship and respect.

This is probably the problem, in that you are over analysing her motives and yours. Can she not be your therapist and a respected friend? I think you might talk to her about this, perhaps write to her by email if you wish, and ask for advice.

Is it that you fancy her, or just feel afraid that you are dependant on her and don't want to lose her? I hope you have a bearable Christmas with your mother. You have overcome terrible obstacles and I bet you are glad you have had so much support from your therapist to help you over Christmas.

Don't blow something apart that is not broken, and stop feeling afraid that your feelings of friendship are unhealthy, even if they are scary at the moment. Good luck!

I think you worry too much about what people might think, and you believe people too much too. Your therapist is probably delighted that you are brave enough to seek help (it takes a lot of courage to recognise your own issues and try to get help). Your attitude to transference sounds healthy and you recognise that you cannot allow this to happen, but are understandably confused as to how to feel toward someone who has helped you so much and in whom you have a strong bond.

As long as you remember that your therapist MUST remain at a slight distance then that is fine. Last but not least, you sound like you need a clean break from your past. Easier said than done, but you are not responsible for anyone other than yourself.

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